D1: Back to Zero

It had been more than a year I abandoned my unspeakable page and yeah today I'm officially back to blogging life. Due to I always have difficulties to voice out my feeling, however I feeling more comfortable to write down each and every feeling I have whether happy, sad, sour, suffer and ect. This is also the reason why I name this blog as 'KitYee-UnspeakablePage'. 

Well, for the past around 3 months something happened then brings big impact on me and some people around me. I believe that's my break down moment when I hardly control my feeling and emotion, I choose to be alone, I run away from the island I living now, I make myself busy, my friendship bonds getting loosen, and of course I lost my myself and smile. I lost my beloved Uncle Yee on 30th May 2014, I know he at a better place now. I owe him one 'Thank You' for taking care of me when I stay at his house when I was 6 years old for 3 years and one 'Goodbye' cause I could not back to hometown give my last respect to him. . I decided to put a full stop for everything, I getting enough with all my lost of my love one. Most of my friends told me that I getting too slim just left bones, don't give them fake smiles, they also asked me "where's your smile?", "where gone the happy-go-lucky you?" and "where gone the strong girl?". I'm here to announce, I'm coming back, this time for real.

Back to today title ' Back to Zero' which mean I choose to start all over again from zero, I want to stand up, be strong and face everything no more escape. Coincidentally, today I had a lunch date with 2 person who I met the first night I came to this island. I get a warm welcome from few of my seniors including both of them. Both of them taking care of me, guide me, give me advice and be listener when I face problem even thou we not always stick together however when I need help, they will not reject. They really do help me a lots. 

To be honest, I remember how I met every single person who close or used to close with me in this campus especially seniors. They are really so kind and friendly. I guess this will only happened in UMSKAL where I consider a small campus compare to other university cause my friends told me before she feeling jealous of me when I can get along with seniors, hang out together, and have random chit chat at cafe unlike them. I consider myself lucky get to knew so many awesome people over here and created so many memories with them. Feeling heavy heart when seniors going to graduate after this semester however I know someday somewhere somehow we will meet again. All the best for them in their future. 

Oh yeah, today I begin my day with a smile. I heart everyone I do care.

Pic of the day ^.^

I shall hand off and continue study for my coming final exam. 

Good luck peeps! 

I never stop giving my all, every minutes and everyday I fight for the things I believe in but the demons are fighting too, as they get stronger I seems to get weaker however that doesn't mean I accept defeat because this fight is all I have left.

By,

KY